Gattaca: Why I Don't Want Kids

I don't know if you've ever seen (or even heard of) the movie Gattica, but basically it's about a society where people have the ability to create the perfect babies. Or at least try to create the perfect babies. But anyway, Recently i've had a few friends have children or inform me they are pregnant. It's scared the bejeezus out of me. They're not my children but it's made me think about how i feel about having children.
To be perfectly honest, I'm deathly afraid of having children. I don't even want to have children really. It sounds horrible but I have my reasons, they're detailed below:

1. Kids cost too damn much!-  I grew up pretty poor the vast majority of my life. I would hate for my kids to experience any of the things that I had to experience. Stuff like not knowing when you were going to eat or wearing shoes with holes in them to school. True story, i had some shoes that when i walked up the stairs you could see my socks. I used to run up the steps in high school hoping nobody would notice. But anyway with kids you have to buy clothes and food and apparently you're also supposed to pay for your kids to go to college. I guess my family and illegal foster family missed that memo. But yea dogs are way cheaper and replaceable by the time they're teenagers . 
2. Kids are bad- Probably one of my biggest fears is that i'll have a child that's a failure in life. Some folks quote the bible on that raise up a child in the way you'd have them to go blah blah (Proverbs 22:6 for my heathens) but i know plenty of great parents who've put their children in the best positions to succeed in life and they've raised welfare queens who are working on a basketball team with 5 different assistant coaches. Or worst they've raised deadbeat dads. I couldn't imagine how i'd feel if my child didn't live up to my expectations. I expect my son to be smarter than me and to be talented, preferably in music and sports two things that I suck at. But a good friend of mine who has two sons once told me: "You're gonna have to have regular children." Every kid can't be extraordinary. And i guess he has a point. But that fear is so real for me. 
3. What if I'm a bad parent?- I'm a product of terrible parenting. It's amazing that I've accomplished what I've accomplished in life. But for all my accomplishments I'm equally effed up, particularly emotionally. There's sooo many mistakes to be made in parenting. There are also a lot of rewards. The same can be said about the lotto though, ain't much sense in wasting money playing though. 

Those of you out there who are parents might say that fear shouldn't keep a person from being a parent but there's a reason that we the instinct of fear. Plus I have 4 nieces and nephews I've been around enough babies in my life. I think i'll just get a dog.


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